ms vs job

2 yr msbr has created lots of confsion. i am kind of confused between the options msbr and job.

why job -
- its easy, less competition. and i am confident to fetch best jobs.
- i am afraid of 3 more yrs at iiit
- i can't wait for 3 years. i have lots of things to do before that. i am afraid of being late. i cannot loose my love. its a very very crutial time for me, and i have to take some decision, and stand for it. for that i need a job. i have to be in a position where i can said my family that i am going to marry her.

why msbr -
- because i want to do it. its my biggest problem. after i decide something, its hard, really very very hard for me to change the descision. i cannot go very easily against all the planning that i have done.
- i want to study. I dont want to finish this life, this learning experiance.
- I am afraid of going into job. I think job will take all my freedom, all this hacking, and everything.
- she has 3 more years left for her B.Sc. So its okey for me to be here for 3 yrs.

"You've already made the choice. Now you have to understand it."
well I have already made the choice of msbr. i am just confusing myself with these options.

most interesting :: i am thinking of keeping it 2 years. i dont want to make it 1 year. i don't want to ask pjn to make it 1 year. i don't know why, but 2 years is attracting me. "Another choice".

tomorrow i will meet pjn and say : "two years is fine for me."

am i crazy ??